New Year...

So it's been awhile since my last blog, sorry holidays and turning another year older kept me busy. Now its 2010, and sadly nothing has changed much. Maybe that's a good thing I guess, but somehow it doesn't feel that way. Lately I've been thinking of past decisions and whether they were right or not. Like when you see those to die for shoes the ones you know will make everything in your closet look fantastic, or so you say to explain away the huge price tag. That you know you can't afford, but they are just so damn adorable you just can't resist. Then few weeks down the road, they don't seem so perfect and now you are even more in debt and you ask your self why did I do this??? Regret, we all have them. Lately I can't seem to stop thinking of my regrets, and this I do not like. I'm for the most part a very optimistic person, who tends to look forward. I try to learn from my past mistakes, and then move onwards. Yet, these last few weeks, I can't seem to do this. This has me worried, I hate that I can't shake these thoughts of what if. What ifs are the most pointless, unproductive question there is. Because the fact is, its doesn't matter what could have happen. Its done, past, moved on, and so should I. For me today is more of a take off my shoes and walk barefoot for awhile, see if the feel of the grass will help me to move past, my past.