Been a longtime...

So its been a longtime since my last post. Life it seems has a way of reminding all of us, that while stilettos or flats can be our trade mark in fashion, being barefoot and shoeless is how we arrived in this world. In the last few months, I've had sexy stiletto days, boring flats days, and then barefoot unprotected days. I've had to face personal and physical crisis one after another. I've had to admit I don't know it all, and even when I do know better I let emotions make decisions my head knew was wrong from the start. But through it all, I was reminded and I've learned that life is not perfect, its not set in stone, and there are always going to be side streets, alley ways, and wrong turns... but eventually like any really well made pair stilettos or flat, you will find your way back and look damn good as you do!

What a Month...

Wow, Its been awhile since my last blog. Life it seems wanted to make sure I know, its not a guarantee. In the month of February, had to deal with the possibility of breast cancer twice over and losing my dog of 8 years the night before my biopsy. To say the least, it was a very trying and emotional time for me. I've been given an all's clear on the breast biopsy, but the loss of my dog Storm is still very sore. See when I got Stormy when he was a pup, it was at a time I had to deal with the results of ending a 7 year relationship and all that went with it. Stormy was my rock, he help keep me grounded, and he also killed many snakes for me.
To lose him the night before I went in for my very first biopsy was traumatic and emotionally crippling all at once. During this time, I came to realise how important it is to do what you want to, should do, or need too in the moment it needs to be done. Because really, tomorrow may never come.

In this past month, my life was like barefoot walking on broken glass and rocks. Along the way my feet toughen up and soon I could talk thru the broken mess of my life to the soft grass. I'm now back in my oh so cute strappy sandals, hooker shoes, and ballet flats, and while they look great they are just a bit tight over the healed scars of this past month.

I for one welcome the pain of this reminder, so I do not forget the most important lesson I learned. Life its not ours forever, so we should live it to its fullest for as long as we are given life.

Lost a great friend today.

I'm very sad today, a great friend of over 8 years has passed away today. He helped me thru some very desperate times in my life, he was such a joy in my life. I feel very lost without my buddy, I'll miss you so very much babe.

New Year...

So it's been awhile since my last blog, sorry holidays and turning another year older kept me busy. Now its 2010, and sadly nothing has changed much. Maybe that's a good thing I guess, but somehow it doesn't feel that way. Lately I've been thinking of past decisions and whether they were right or not. Like when you see those to die for shoes the ones you know will make everything in your closet look fantastic, or so you say to explain away the huge price tag. That you know you can't afford, but they are just so damn adorable you just can't resist. Then few weeks down the road, they don't seem so perfect and now you are even more in debt and you ask your self why did I do this??? Regret, we all have them. Lately I can't seem to stop thinking of my regrets, and this I do not like. I'm for the most part a very optimistic person, who tends to look forward. I try to learn from my past mistakes, and then move onwards. Yet, these last few weeks, I can't seem to do this. This has me worried, I hate that I can't shake these thoughts of what if. What ifs are the most pointless, unproductive question there is. Because the fact is, its doesn't matter what could have happen. Its done, past, moved on, and so should I. For me today is more of a take off my shoes and walk barefoot for awhile, see if the feel of the grass will help me to move past, my past.